my FUCKED UP life

Didnt know it would hurt so much when this is the best for both of us.

Will i regret it later? Maybe.. then i’ll know i’ve lost my first love forever.

Thank you for loving me and showing me how to love someone with my all.

thank you Terah for waking up <3

this doesnt seem right for me to write because i didnt know Terah at all, but for some reason i feel so emotionally attached to the situation.

I met Terah when i was on my first “date” with Elliott. Elliott and I went to gofortea in markham with all his friends to study. it was actually a time for him and i to get to know each other and for me to meet his friends. I, being shy to strangers, didnt even lift my eyes off my marketing textbook. however, while i was reading about consumer behaviour (lol), elliott tapped me on my shoulder and told me to meet his best friend, Terah. I lifted my eyes off my page to see a tall, skinny but built asian kid with glasses. He gave me a smile and said “hello”.

He wasnt like any of elliotts other friends. for one thing, he was WHITE WASHED(LOL). He quit smoking and went to the gym frequently. He was driven in his school work, kinesiology at york, and had such an open mind about everything. I watched and observed him for the rest of the night, because he was like Elliotts brother. Elliott and Terah went to elementary and high school together. He had so much respect and love for him, so i felt i had to make a good impression and get to know him as much as i could.

As time passed, elliott and i became a couple and i saw Terah about 2 or 3 times after that night at gofortea. He helped elliott when he has back pains, trouble sleeping and when he had an unexpainable condition to his feet. Terah was always there for elliott and i thanked him every time he got out of his way for Elliott.

i dont want to go into detail about what happened b4 his accident because im in a very tight situation now where i can go to jail, but the morning of Tuesday December 21st, 2010 was a nightmare for me and all of Elliotts friends.

Right now Terah is at Sunnybrook hospital in the trauma centre. He has a fracture in his skull, fractured his jaw, dislocated his shoulder and is breathing from a tube. We were told he is in a coma, induced, so he doesnt move around or feel the agonizing pain from all his injuries when he wakes up.

I dont know how to explain how i feel but all i can wish and hope is that he wakes up ok. We all know that he wont wake up to the same Terah, but all we can do is help he become him again.

the 2 biggest things that i’ve discovered from this is that your friends and family will always be there for you AND that you can get so much support from people that you dont even know.

thank you for all those that have msged me with support. i really hope you guys keep my friend in your prayers. thank you so much.

<3 Terah. wake up so we can see you smile again…